In a room full of people, i still feel alone
Each night, I put my head to my pillow. I try to tell myself that I’m strong, because I’ve gone one more day without you.
> Wednesday, December 31, 2008
OH GOD.
TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF 2008
2008 is ending soon,
Be it friendship, kinship or other things, I guessed alot of things changed in this year. I think i have gone through all these in this year, so i guessed it's time to leave behind all the negative things be it those happy or those unhappy ones, and move forward.
2 words i must say "Time Flies"
& we'll say hello to 2009.
Cherish each day as u might not know if u get to see e dawn.
Seriously i did missed my past,
i did missed my memories.
what to do?
Time are cruel.
Shall end this by a short post.

> Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Juz bk fm cca.
sec 2s suppose to reach at 7.45
bt onli 4 pp cm nia?
zzz
so waited for xinzhi to cm
cm le jiu discuss abt e orientation thingy
wat we nid to change
den we we go itr1
cos pp cleaning e ava rm
sat wif JY
haha sing e white horses
den jiu go to ava rm
i said to JY tat i give him a name called RJC!
haha lol
gt debrief abt e camp las tim
wat went well wat nid to improve
end le i go find yanting
wah 1hr30mins
saw mdm sim
den we go find our class
mine is beside siuhui's class 2e3 ^^
yeah u cn return me money on fri le=]
haha so happy
anw i saw siting today
paiseh la nvr saw u^^
sry lo
we are so busy living our lives that we forgot to indulge in life's simple pleasures.

> Monday, December 29, 2008
Hellos!
arghh ok let's look at e time
i am juz bk fm changi airport
lols
waited dere for a long time
went there for toilet
oh ya b4 dat me mum & my uncle went for supper
ok tats gd!=]
yummy!
my bro & dad bought alot of things
heard tat she's gg to Jb today & back on tues
Bon Voyage
oh ya today nid to go for meeting at Je library 11am?
lols so early?
i wan sleep >< arghh~
a few hrs for me to sleep nia? =(
help! oh god.
changi airport is so damn cold even if i wear jeans & 2 shirts =.=
LOL!
so i mayb gg taiwan nex yr??=.=

> Sunday, December 28, 2008

Oh god!
is lik 5 more days to sch reopen?
and hv cca?
hais mayb i dunno sm pp de?
anw tues 30dec nid to go bk to cca
very qi dai wor hahahas
can learn syf de!
for me,
is fun!
hw onli lef math 2 mre qns xDD
ltr go jurong point wif my mum & aunt
to relax liao la
hahas
actuali e pl is so damn big la!
was lik omg?!@#
bt for me is nth to buy?
cos all th i hv liao le
i juz go dere for fun nia~
cos stay at hm so boring!
and i hate that too):
My Bro And Dad Is Back tmr midnight!
so monday midnight i gonna go to changi airport and fetch them?
okays i know i am good
sacrifice my sleeping time?
nvm ma nowadays i also very late sleep de so nvm
I miss my primary sch life. hais):
sch gonna reopen
so nt enuf time to blogging?
& post?? ><
okays juz bk fm Jurong Point
tmr gonna go sch for meeting at jec library 11am
den tues go out wif huey at 2plus?xDD
cherished e moments of 2008=]

Confusion. Pain. Unanswered questions. These are only some of what we face when a friend turns their back on us…

> Saturday, December 27, 2008

Hais nwadays keep feeling sad sad de
i also dunno why also dunno hw to explain?
the time in my heart had stopped?
bt ever since when it had stopped???
Losing a best friend to the inevitable circumstances of life is a painful memory, but one accompanied by good memories and future hope.
Shall i need to bear wif those unhappy memories?
shall i always keep thinking abt tat??
shall i?
Dreams will never come true...Some truths we learn too late. But better that than to never learn at all.
I HAD FINISHED MY DNT!
HURRAY!
ONLY LEFT MATH BA?
2 MORE QUESTIONS=]
JIAYOU!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jv3cYHXE280&feature=related

this is touching!=]

> Friday, December 26, 2008

yo everybody!
nw nth really much for me to do!
my dnt left 10 more!
hurray!
bt lazy to draw e 10 more
so decide to draw it on sun ba?
hahas chiong lo
e math left 2 mre qns
nw chatting msn wif pp
shall nt say who is it!
very irritating lo
hais gonna go jec library tmr at 2pm?
for booth comm meeting!
hope it wld be success!=]


Love can sometimes bring the loss of friendship as our lives change and we drift from those we knew. To be replaced by a new friend, the one we love. But that, too, can be lost…

> Thursday, December 25, 2008


Hiie Everybody!
Today is Merry Xmas!
hahas seems lik everybody went out to celebrate
and of cos i do have wishes!
bt also wants them to come true yea=]

1.Better Results for 09
2.Have more friends
3.Everybody stays happy
4.SWISSCHOIRSYF09 SILVER AWARD
5.A New watch(lols lik spoil le?
6.ELMO TOY!!(LOVE IT=D)
7.To get into Chinese and Math express course 09
8.No more quarrels between anybody
9.A gathering for pri sch(cnt come true??):)
10.all the best for next year!

It seems lik very hard to come true?
hahas anw Wish Everyone A Very Happy Xmas!
May All Ur Wishes Come True.
And God Will Bless~~

Like any other kind of love, friendship can be lost within our lives due to neglect or anger or, sometimes, simply circumstances. However it is lost, we often lose a part of ourselves that can never quite be recovered.

> Wednesday, December 24, 2008


Hellos~
Today is Christmas Eve!
Everyone will be celebrating bahs??
hais so gd):
As for me,
i nid to stay at hm wif my bro & sis
3 person nia~
hahas gift exchange wif them lols?
i bought adidas bottle to my bro
as for my sis,
i bought a elmo's book for her i also hv=]
damn ex~
cos i bought at takashimaya
almost 10 plus for both gifts?
plus i asked ppl to wrap for me
so more than 10 liao
haha no money le~
Merry Xmas to all!`

> Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Today went orchard wif mum & sis
hahas was fun bought alot of things
quite happy~

This is e quiz hui min wan me to do=]

Rules and regulations:
1)Each player of this game start off with 10 weird things/
habits/little known fact about themselves.
2)People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own.
3)At the end you need to choose 10 people to be tagged, and list their name.
4)no tag back.

hehes weird things abt me wor... zzz
wat shd i get started??

1.I HATE SCIENCE! hahas always fail that pathetic subject.
2.I love ELMO!!
3.I love swiss choir forever
4.I HATE DOING HOMEWORK! CNT FINISH IT ><
5.I LOVE MY HANDPHONE(24/7 ON)
6.I HATE BEING LOOKED DOWN ON
7.I LOVE MYSELF(LOLS??)
8.I HATE PEOPLE WHO ARE PROUD
9.I LOVE 6.1'06
10.I HATE PPL ACTING CUTE


Pass to:
1.Siuhui
2.Evonne
3.Josephine Yee
4.Ong jia min
5.Cui Ting
6.Lia
7.Bai hui
8.Yong Jia
9.Yan Ting
10.Fiona

The End...

> Monday, December 22, 2008

Today went Jurong Point & IMM wif mum & sis
Jurong Point was too much as i cont expect
walked until my legs was in pain
actuali alrdy pain liao hais ):
bt i nvr tell my mum cos ltr hor
sure bring me to see a doc
wich is waste alot of $$$ hahas
when we took 180 to Jurong Point
saw my cousin
then my mum talked to her lols
i saw her smsing until halfway
den nvr send
hahas my mum very talkative lols
we went Jurong Point for lunch
wah dere is many pp
so waited for 20 mins
den cn find a seat
mum says nex tym eat at hm lols??
hahas~!
wana buy gift exchange for bro
bt all nt suitable
so we went to IMM
at last we still nvr buy xDD
cos cont find lols
so bought daily uses
and we went hm by taking 188~
hvn even do my dnt~
sian diao~
i so lazy
nobody cn help me
my cousin still say lol 10 more days
hvn finish
he was so nosey abt me~
zzz

> Sunday, December 21, 2008
































> Saturday, December 20, 2008
I am juz awake & i cont believe ...
tat i woke up so early lo
as i slept late ytd~
hahas
dunno wads e time exactly
ltr still nid go jurong east library
to meet sokhui & asyiqin they ur??
for e booth meeting??
for e sec 1 orientation?
wa so long nvr go dere liao
hope i nvr forget bahs??
hehes den at nite i gg to cousin's hse
cos is his bd
lol dun reali noe him
den my parents wan me to go
den aft dat nid to send bro & dad
cos they gg taiwan...
den me...
tmr gg aunt's hse until they cum bk
very sian~
hw hvn do ne ><
arghh~
hate it ><
& i love ytd heartwarming session ! =]

> Friday, December 19, 2008

Hellos I'M BACK FROM SWISS CHOIR CAMP! 3D2N & I DID ENJOY MYSELF TOO!
wahahas so tiring~ okays i report to sch for game comm at 6.55 actuali is suppose to be 6.45 lo bt i woke up late at 6.24 lols?? we filled e water bags near 100?? den took a long time yeas?? get scolded by seniors cos we took too much time?? sry~ so we went to play game~ VERY FUN LO>< gt flour de ne>< den lost e scissors paper stone. we gt forfeit wich is drew lipstick?? chiong to toilet and washed it away la xDD wahahas bt is lik so hard to wash it off?? forget still gt wat games le` oh ya e rehearsal CPMG!for other songs, i from altos change to sop2?? omg wif lingying, sokhui & josephine yee too la. oh ya i rmb josephine yee keep thinkg abt her renjie lols?? i was lik huh?? sian` she wans a hug fm him. i keep joking wif her le xDD no bully ah! went to bathe. i was e 2nd one to bath?? den wash very fast lo><" CANNOT SLEEP COS E FLOOR WAS HARD ! hahas den seniors scold us nvr sleep sry it was nt us dun wan sleep is cnt sleep we try to close our eyes le. okays talk abt 18 dec interview. only mdm dawn choo & ms wan?? i was lik huhs?? COS I SAW MY RESULT SLIP PHEW~!TINK MY INTERVIEW FAIL LE BA? COS I DUNNO WAT TO SAY~ I'M STUCK!we sung e SET PIECE!omg it was so hard! i tried to sing high notes wif JOSEPHINE YEE lo cos she sung quite loud. bt cnt lo so reach it den mr wilson say U SUNG QUITE WELL E TUNE WAS RIGHT?? i was lik huhs?? oh ok. den lik other pp keep looking at me lo?? so embarrassed. hais ): we prepared for e pop thingy. so rushing. cos condutor release us late~ rush to help pp den go bathe. many seniors came. chat to them. talk to long liao?? sokhui wan me to go away ne ): watch e video. perform e grps. den other teachers in charge came in. we very late then slept oh ya slept at 12 plus?? cunt slept. evonne keep snoring lo>< hais i cnt sleep! sian` today was tiring la. today gt e duo mao mao thingy. i hide in e scouts rm, actuali cnt find den xiaojun go bent down lingying came in. was fun! forfeit wear & tear e underpants xDD e cip thingy~ bt it was fun ! saw QAD siting, zhiqing,sylvia & zhiqing hahahas so fun!
& today gt heartwarming session wif chloe(senior) & other juniors was fun! we keep gossiping lo>< laugh very loud !shh dun spread anyone xD

> Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Hellos ;DD
today went tiong bahru plaza wif bro & mum
cos wana buy things gg to taiwan
actuali i nvr go taiwan so go dere only for fun =.="
den took mrt to boon lay
go to jurong point
wah so big la
everything change le wor
so bought me a earstick, skirt.
go dere walk until leg pain le
wahahas
spent alot of $ today
and took 180 hm
wah so many pp zzz
jiu tink of hvn even pack camp's things
lazy la~
tmr 6.45am report to sch le
cos of game comm lo >_<"
very tired~
hais~

I'll be away for 3 days bcos of swiss choir's camp...

> Monday, December 15, 2008

today went to watch twilight wif st
it was nice lo
hehes it was touching lo
lols bt i didnt cry
wahahas
go mac ate ice cream wif st
nice!
waited for so long for e queue!
damn irritating larhs!
zzz
morning went for game comm meeting
e games was fun
i being blindfold ne
then played lols
hahas nt bad nt bad
went to wm for lunch and bought masking tape
shujing says muz take e recipt ma
so lent popular card fm st
hehes thks cheaper
tmr gonna pack camp things??
sian diao la..
interview is nearer...
2days to camp....................

> Sunday, December 14, 2008

hellos everyone !
u guys shd be sleeping yea?
lol juz cont sleep lols
oh ya i cont go chalet today le
cos is lik very rush nid to go camp on 17 ne
and so sry to my aunts..
i also nvr go taiwan
cos i didnt manage to do finish my hol hw =.="
sian~
mon gotta go sch for meeting
oh ya nid to bring $26 dollars for camp
nt included choir tee money
wah sian gt alot of choir tee liao la
wahahas
if my dad noe sure scold me =.="
zzz hais . . .
ytd de single daddy in love is NICE !
SO TOUCHING LA
I EVEN CRY NE =.=
he gt e brain tumour
bt lik gt part 3?
hehes yea
nex wk is honey & clover~

> Saturday, December 13, 2008


hellos ;DD
ytd aft chat wif rachel in msn hor
den suddenly feel a sense of responsibility
we will jiayou de yea??
hahas inform juniors abt e camp
bt is lik only jiamin replied me??
i gt say pls reply asap ne =(
wths ;DD
so cnt sms too much le no money
ytd actuali wana do hw de
bt no time larhs
hehes slacker i am
oh ya i keep forgetting to go take e one more bk
memory's falling too ):
hais sian~
also cont return hueyhuey's umbrella xDD
today gonna buy camp games things
10am meet at bpp??
so early la
wana sleep le
oh ya owe yongjia one pencil
hvn return and she keep telling me to return xDD
wahahahas

> Friday, December 12, 2008


yo ;DD
wah sian so early wor
hees e zq still sleeping
lol cca so late for wat
hahahas
oh ya might nt watch forensic heroes las episode today le
aiya lik nt free??
so cnt watch??
hais sian ): try to rush hm & watch
and i missed e nyon ya show la hahas ;DD
today dunno e conductor will cm ma??
long time nvr cm le
so sian~
cnt learn new songs~
oh ya hvn audition for e camp
hehes is today ba?
cos senior say today?
we prepared to sing " JUS STAND UP"
hope it success ! =]
today everbdy solo
so it was ok la?
bt too nervous
can hear e voice
cn u imagine only i'm singing??
wahahas
we gotta do sm soul-searching on ourselves~
cos...
aiya we nid to work hard to our goal =.=
jiayous

> Thursday, December 11, 2008
hellos thks zq!=]
wah sian today woke up so early??
cont sleep at all ne
so use com
ltr gonna go bpp for meeting
wif yongjia, bernadette lim & jiamin?
hope tmr present cn be successful ne=(
if nt ltr gt scolded by seniors??
jiayou le=D
juz bk fm dinner lo><
wahahas
gt drenched ne ><
me yongia & jiamin lo
wahahas
then bathe at yongjia hse
tis is e dunno hw many times i gt drenched le ba??
LOL
we decided to sing "JUST STAND UP"
hope is nice for tmr??=]
forensic heros rox!!
tmr cca!


I jus cont stop thinking abt u..

> Wednesday, December 10, 2008

hellos;D
wths nodoby wana go out wif me
zzz stay at hm do hw le ba??
sian nex wk camp liao le la ><
so fast!
lol hate it!!=.=
den tmr nid to meeting for e individuals
tis wk keep gg out le >_<"
ltr gt scolded
wahahahas
i mean by parents
keep use money

2 years and 5 months ...

> Tuesday, December 9, 2008

She's been thinking of someone else for 2 years and 5 months, e time flies and yet cldnt see for so long, her patience soon decrease and decrease. She juz cldnt wait anymore and wanted to give up, she wanted to erase those memories she'd before. But she juz cldnt, waiting and waiting . . . wahahas~ continue waiting......
Juz bk fm cca~Well, it was tiring of cos =.= conductor didnt cm lols.. so is lik us singing.. everyone gotta solo?? den nd to stand between other sect.. i stand wif fiona and jielin.. wths they won le la hahas both so loud! still hi 5 2gthr.. i gt change pl wif yilin.. bt they asked me to go bk=.=" in e end i gt sing abit wrongly.. den do e musical background.. keep changing songs?? zzz hahas changed bk to lucky again! >_<" and huiqi sit my dad car too cos she was late for swiss winds..xD tmr go badminton!! yea wif hh & st.. while thu meeting =.= tis wk so busy la! wahahas miracle i cn go out?? LOLS!!

> Monday, December 8, 2008


Juz ate finish dinner wif family, we went to e restaurant and ate wah so many pp so is lik very late den ate zzz e service was nt gd lo so nex tym dun wan go dere ne zzz oh ya today went out at 10 plus actually is woke up at 10.20 lor is suppose to meet at 11 at bpp, i rushed lik siao ne i even reached dere at 10.45 ne ! hahas =x breakfast only eat 1 bread? so pathetic. actually cn sleep one de ne zzz others was late! wahahas den went to yongjia's hse.. jiamin didnt cm =.= so lef me & bernadette ! discussed abt e individual.. den went to hv lunch at mac den waited for other pp to go yongjia's hse, do e musical background. hahas we used e pails fm yongjia's. listened to e song "lucky" alot of time ne xD den practised until 4.30? lol so late gt scolded by dad cos he called me alot of time =.= tmr nd to go dere at 8 actually is 9 de cos meet earlier lo =.= wonder nd bring pails ma??

> Sunday, December 7, 2008


Juz bk fm orchard, went there wif cousins. It's so boring cos they wan me to accompany them?? so no choice also nth to do so go lor, anw i nt gg for e chalet thingy ._. sry cos is lik very rush lor, if go chalet den nex day nid to wake up early? so decided to draw dnt >< I even forget where i'd drew liao? omg i gt stm wahahas! lalalas~ tmr gg to meet for e individuals & e sectionals thingy! tues nid to dry run for e camp! zen me ban? so rush! arghh hahas heck care le la! who cares? dun even noe if cn go taiwan ne>=.= dun feel lyk gg ne! one week? so long~
& also i juz finished e concert reflection dunno spent hw long to do le cos is lik each point nid to write 50 words? mayb 1hr to 2? hahas hope its acceptable! also dunnoi wrote correct marhs? wahahas~ wrong dun scold me =x tyvm [: also no time to watch co pp perform? LOL so far if tell my parents sure gt scolded! wahahas


you're the only one.

> Saturday, December 6, 2008

nw meeting at msn wif other choir pp
bt they say is 3.30?
so nth to do lo xD
slackin nw at friendster & blog
nobody talk to me one too
i was lik wths~
hahahas
hvn even finish e dnt leh
morning i'd done e concert relection le =)
guai ba?
of cos la
spent alot of time doin le
wahahahas
aroun 2 hrs?
=]




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